The external quality auditor came in on Monday 5th of March. This is how it went down.
A colleague of mine and I worked one evening a week for about five or six weeks to get all the work sampled and documented. Much of it was lost due to IT restructuring which didn’t help. From January to March the stress would rise as I constantly thought about the amount of paperwork that hadn’t been done for one reason or another. Some of it my fault, some of it not. Either way the stress was high. I considered going sick so many times. But I actually kept on going into work. Hoping that the light at the end of the dark tunnel would arrive. Finally we managed to finish the paperwork. All we could do now is wait.
…inside I was truely amazed.
Then one day during our normal meetings one of our line managers started to talk about the external quality auditor coming in on March 5th. At the time this was in about two weeks or so. There was a list that was passed around with the name of the students work that “she” wants to see. The ‘enemy’ (bit of drama!) was a woman. On this list no-one from our team was listed. The line manager even told us that we don’t appear in the list. It was like we were five and we had gotten away with some trouble we had caused! One of my colleagues said that my face was a real picture. I didn’t realise I was even pulling an expression, but inside I was truely amazed.
I couldn’t help but think that there was something else going on. I decided not to return any of the work we had collected to the students until the 5th came and went. Wednesday 29th came and an email arrived saying that the external quality auditor wanted to see the work of the students listed and the course manual folder for the courses too. The students listed were mostly my students! This was why my staff and I weren’t on the first list! (or at least thats what I think.) All the students listed left back in July last year and all their work went with them as the external quality auditor was happy with the sample that they saw. So I had nothing to give other than my course manual folder full of paperwork. This was given in last friday and the fateful day came and went without a peep. Infact there hasn’t been a peep about it all week.
In fact all things just aren’t worth worrying about.
The weird thing is that now that I have done all I can to make this check on quality go smoothly, my stress levels have gone right down again. I seem to be learning that some things just aren’t worth worrying about. In fact all things just aren’t worth worrying about. I really need to learn this and learn it fast. It’s not like I’m some young sprog whose learning the ropes!
See Dec 12th 2011 for Part 1.
I have a cognitive behavioural therapy course in a few weeks. I’m going to enjoy that as it should help me keep myself from boiling over with stress like back in December. I’m still trying to fiqure out what I really want to spend the next part of my life doing. I have considered:
Something to do with Philosophy
Something to do with Hinduism
Being a cleaner and living life with less stress and (possibly) more time
Being a Bus driver
Being a UPS delivery driver
mmm…. dear reader, do you have any ideas?